May 2012
17 posts
May 29
The weekend did not go the way I wanted it to. The first day was fine, but by the end I had lost control. Today, I try once again to start over.
1 John 1:9
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
May 26
I’m not binging, but I would say I have been allowing to snack a little too much. I think I have made some steps in the right direction. I seem to have accepted the fact that chocolate, and cookies, etc are part of a healthy diet (in moderation), but I think I have snacking out of boredom lately. I haven’t let it get too far, and I haven’t really had the ‘last supper...
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May 25th
Yesterday, was the first day of living in my apartment where my disordered eating patterns affected me. I didn’t want to binge, but I did have that ‘I’ll start tomorrow’ attitude as an excuse to eat some more granola bars. I didn’t even want more granola bars. I felt like I became a slave to them. I didn’t feel free anymore. Yesterday’s damage was...
May 24
Verse of the Day:
Psalm 34:8
Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!
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May 23
Yesterday, I was tempted by the granola balls I made. However, I allowed myself to have some and was cautious at night. It feels good to say no, but I still feel guilty about having them. I will have to work on that. It feels good to say no! Not allowing myself to eat tons of food at night makes me feel free and more independent.. like I have detached myself from a ball and chain. I think the...
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May 22
Yesterday was great! I think I am finally in a great place to recover! I love cooking my own food, and in my own apartment there’s not very many trigger foods. Plus, I have to make sure my food lasts, since I no longer have a campus meal plan, it will destroy my budget if I eat all of my food in one night.
Today’s Challenges:
1.Trigger Foods: I do have a few trigger foods in my...
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May 21st
Today is kind of a new beginning. It is the first full day I will be spending in my own apartment! :) I am so excited to be able to cook for myself! I think that this could be a great step in fixing my disordered eating patterns. However, this is not going to cure my problems. The word that came to me yesterday was ‘surrender’. I really want to surrender my problems to God- give...
May 18 #2
Well I was fine at the party. I think the challenge is always binging after the party. I think I struggle it times when I’m not in control of what I am eating and then I binge after it. Today I basically had 4 meals. I’m not sure what to make of it. I’m not sure if I was actually hungry for the fourth one. I didn’t swim very much, but being at a pool and in the sun...
May 18
The last few days have been very unpredictable with it being the last few days of school. I am all done with finals and will be moving off campus tomorrow! I am so excited because I think living on campus, and the lack of healthy food options really contributed to my disordered eating habits.
Today’s Challenge: Survive the End of School Party
Today I have to go to a school organization...
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May 15
Its been a while since I have posted. I have been doing Insanity, the workout dvds. I am now working out at a very high intensity. Because I am working out so hard, as a person with disordered eating I am tempted to:
1. Eat very little. I have never starved myself, but a have a warped view of an ideal day. I think it is a perfectionist tendency of my personality. I think that I can eat about...
May 12th
Well… the night of May 10th I ended up binging. It wasn’t a huge binge, but a binge nonetheless. I lost controll. It was undoubtedly due to boredom. As a very busy person, it seems odd having free time. I don’t know what to do with it, so I fill it with eating.
I read an article on breaking bad habbits. The article said to focus on the good things that will come from...
May 10th
Yesterday, went okay. I didn’t binge eat despite the stress. I do think I snacked a little too much. I am going to institute a new rule of no snacking. The only exception is unless my stomach actually growls. That’s the only way I will know I am actually hungry. Boredom and stress greatly contribute to my overeating, which follows with feelings of guilt…. that lead to...
May 9th
Yesterday felt great! It was the first day in a few that I ate proper portions and didn’t snack unnecessarily. I also worked out! Yay!
Today I have a nerve wracking day with finals going on. On days like today I have to be careful of emotional/stress eating. Here are my verses for today:
Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your...
Restart
Today is my official restart day.
Today I begin eating healthy and working out again. I will not become victim of gluttony and hopelessness. As a Christian, I am among the luckiest person on Earth. By the grace of God I am delivered and saved from my sinful ways. Now it is time to start acting like it and treating my body as the temple God calls it to be. Its time to stop being ashamed and...
I Am Worthy: I have a binge eating disorder. →
8yearsoffailing1yeartosuccess:
I’m embarrassed to eat in front of other people. I have been for as long as I can remember. Since probably 3rd of 4th grade. And now, as a 21 year old- I don’t know how to reverse the damage. I’m obese, and I’m a binge eater. I don’t know what to do.
So I’m going to turn over this problem to God….
May 7th
This past weekend was full of some of the greatest spiritual highs as well as some of the greatest lows. However, it ended on a positive note. I felt truly happy and peaceful last night and that is a feeling I do not want to lose.
Now the Lord of peace himself give you peace always by aall means. The Lord be with you all. -II Thessalonians 3:16
Thank you Lord for always being with me. ...
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Lets try this again
Hello. I have recently deleted all of my posts in an effort to give myself a new start. This blog is about gaining control, confidence, and health. I am about to finish my second year of college and have spent every day of the past two years obsessing over food and my body. Binge eating is my largest problem.
Goal:To have a healthy relationship with food and a positive body image.
How:Give...
